Why Am I Still So Affected?

Please!!! Free me from her grasp..

it's already been a year and a half, 456 days..isn't it enough already? i know i'm a sinner who deserved to be punished but i've really been through a lot..erase her from my memories please..

a few hours ago, i've pissed many people off..i wanted to apologize..but will anyone accept my apologies even if i mean it sincerely? well, perhaps i know the reason to why they wont forgive me..i'm a big fucker, right?

you are not the one at fault..i am..

i couldn't control my emotions n let them take control of me..im such an asshole..

you were right to leave me..

I'M A BASTARD!!!